January 22, 2016

I had told myself for the majority of yesterday that I was going to call in sick today.  It was partially because I was so miserable and partially because I wanted a form of revenge for causing me to be so miserable.  I awoke feeling markedly better and decided to go to work anyway today. I chose to drive again, because I still wasn’t back to 100%, so I wasn’t sure I was ready to walk to work yet.

My day was good, but I just wanted to get it done and over with.  I still showed a lot of documentaries instead of really teaching much, but I made it through the day much more easily. I also called a divorce lawyer to look at the papers I was served. I was given an appointment for Monday. I was worn out at the end of the day, but I was at least in a good mood!  When I got home, I started a new knitting project, something that I had been putting off for awhile.  My good friend, Zak, who lives far away had asked me to make it for him.  I happily complied since he had always been there for me when I needed it, since we were in college.  I had been putting it off for two reasons, the first was that I had never tried a pattern like this before and the second was that it was so bulky, I couldn’t take it with me on the train.

I had plans to see several of my friends tonight. Diego said something about not being able to see me, but didn’t make too big a deal about it.  It’s always difficult to tell if he is truly annoyed or just joking.  I decided to assume that it wasn’t a problem because his tone of voice didn’t change when we discussed.

I had a good time with my friends, but found myself really stuck in my own headspace.  I didn’t really find interest in any of the conversations.  I couldn’t really even focus on the conversation, much less participate.  I still enjoyed playing the games and just seeing them.  I got home in time for Diego to come over, but he thought it was too late.  I tried to work some more on my knitting, but fell asleep trying, so I went to bed.

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Today I gave up my procrastination and finally started my knitting project.

Today I’m grateful that I was able to see my friends, get through the day, and work on my knitting project.

I helped nobody today.

I spent no time in nature.

I spent about $20 on food.

I slept for about 7 hours last night.

I did not meditate today.

I did not exercise today.

I did not follow my diet today.

I did not clean or straighten today.

I was showered but did not brush my teeth today.

I was feeling happy and contented today.  My temperament was good.

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One thought on “January 22, 2016

  1. I see much victory in this post concerning you. It was not a perfect day but a good one! That’s progress and should be praised and recognized. Tomorrow you get up and give it a go again. With no expectations, you may find yourself pleasantly surprised and having yet another good day. Thanks for sharing your head and your heart. Somebody needs both😀

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