I awoke feeling better. I decided to drive to work since I figured walking in the cold to and from work wasn’t helpful to recovering from whatever was wrong with me. I had decided to go to work because my older classes were all on a field trip, so I only had to teach three classes plus my dance rehearsal. I still wasn’t back to perfect health, but I figured I could handle that much. As soon as I got to work, my boss scheduled me to make up many of the classes I had missed yesterday so I had to teach seven classes plus my dance rehearsal after school. I wasn’t sure I could handle all of that. I ran to the bathroom and started crying. I was just so emotional and I didn’t feel well and I wasn’t sure I could handle it. I debated whether or not I should confront my boss and let her know that I couldn’t handle it, or just wait until halfway through the day and just go home sick without any warning. I asked a coworker for advice and she recommended that I just have all of my classes watch art-related movies, mostly because my boss was in a very bad mood. My boss is very moody and it’s well-known among the staff to avoid her like the plague when she’s in a bad mood.
I surprisingly managed to make it through the day, though I was very tired and out of it throughout the day. In my dance rehearsal, I lost my temper on a student. It’s not like I swore at her or anything, but I still was unkind and told her to shut-up. The students all immediately were silent and were well-behaved for the remainder of the rehearsal.
I was in a miserable mood when I left work. I just wanted to be held. When Diego texted me asking if I wanted to see him, I immediately said yes. I told him about my bad day. I wasn’t sure I was feeling up to having sex, but he didn’t mention it before he came over. He drove over. His presence immediately made me feel better. He bought me something that I had needed, but stubbornly not bought because I could still use the old one, even if it was not ideal. It was a very thoughtful gift! Eventually, I was happier and surprisingly ready to have sex with him. I fell asleep almost immediately afterward. He woke me up when he prepared to leave, but I fell asleep not long afterwards.
Today I gave up my belief that I couldn’t do something and tried to do it anyway.
Today I’m grateful that I was able to get through the day, for the advice of my coworker, and for Diego.
I helped nobody today.
I spent no time in nature.
I spent no money today.
I slept for about 8 hours last night, plus a few hours of a nap today.
I did not meditate today.
I did not exercise today.
I did not follow my diet today.
I did not clean or straighten today.
I was not showered and did not brush my teeth today.
I was feeling miserable for most of the day. Diego managed to pull me out of my mood at the end of the day. My temperament was bad today.