I awoke in Diego’s arms, loving the feel of his skin against mine, as always. We had sex twice then fell back asleep. I hadn’t set an alarm because I almost never sleep past 8am. I awoke at 8:50, realizing that I was late. I had a phone call with my weight loss group at 9:00, but when I called, nobody was there. I got a few things done and left for my friend Rebecca’s house.
Me and a group of friends have something on between spiritual and religious gatherings every few weeks. Today we all met to schedule them for the upcoming year. We discussed various topics we’d like to cover and dates that were and weren’t good for us. It was long and tedious, but we managed it in the end. I got stuck in pouring rain on my way home, so I didn’t arrive home until a little after 5:00.
I was wondering why I hadn’t heard from Diego all day. I had just pulled out my phone to text him when he texted me! It wasn’t much, just asking how my day was going, but his timing was spooky! I spent the rest of the night getting stuff done. It was weird, I felt tired, but I couldn’t bring myself to go to sleep until I had at least accomplished specific tasks.
When I did get in bed, I felt a contentedness that I had not felt in a while. For the first time in a long time, I could smell Diego’s cologne on the pillow next to mine, though I only breathed it in once or twice. It was a contentedness unrelated to anything other than just being happy with my life. It took me longer than usual to fall asleep. That was okay. I liked how I felt and simply lay there enjoying it. I took the time to think about how my and Diego’s relationship was different from all of my previous relationships. It even deviated from the typical relationship phases that I had read about. Usually the first 1-6 months are the honeymoon phase, where you just basically love and worship each other. No matter what, you seem to think the sun shines out of each other’s asses during this phase. Then, for the next 1-5 years there’s the phase where you realize the other person isn’t perfect. You fight and learn about each other’s defects. You figure out either how to live with them and deal with them or you break up. It’s kind of the make it or break it period. But because of our cultural differences, we seem to have skipped the honeymoon phase. Yes, we still are happy with each other, but the differences and defects were apparent right away. I wondered if this boded well or badly for our relationship. Maybe it was an advantage dealing with this crap when our feelings still overwhelm our reason, but I suppose only time will tell. I drifted off to sleep.
Today I gave up the idea that they way a current relationship is does not necessarily predict the way a relationship would be in the future.
Today I’m grateful that I got to see my friends, got to wake up next to Diego, and got stuff done.
I have my friend a ride home.
I spent no time in nature.
I spent about $35 on groceries and $7 on food.
I slept for about 8 hours last night.
I did not meditate today.
I did not exercise today.
I did not follow my diet today.
I cleaned and straightened today.
I was showered but did not brush my teeth today.
I was in a good mood today. My temperament was good.