I discovered the truth I was wondering about last night far sooner than I expected. I was still feeling a bit sick and felt like sleep was necessary for my complete recovery. Diego tried to wake me up (twice) in the middle of the night for sex. All I remember was giving him a firm “no”, rolling over, and going back to sleep. We still had some good sex in the morning after I woke up.
After he left, I considered the problems I had with my past partners with the lack of sex after awhile. I reasoned that it was partially my own fault. I often got in a mood or caught up with some project that I deemed more important than sex. I liked how Diego was so insistent that it kept me on track with what was really important when I saw him, spending quality time with him. I wondered how long it would last.
After Diego left, I read for awhile, debating going back to sleep. Eventually, around noon, I did sleep. I woke up and it was already 4pm! I texted with Diego a bit and he complained that I didn’t want sex as much as he did. I told him I don’t like sex when I’m tired. He suggested getting together tomorrow afternoon. I liked the idea of switching up our normal routine a bit and happily agreed.
I was disappointed about having slept so long because I felt like I had so many things to do over the break and wanted to catch up on them at once. Instead, I laid out a plan. I identified 7 things I should do every day. Then I took my random number generator app and figured out which to focus on. I did everything except straighten and clean. I even exercised! For the first time in months, I did that yoga dvd that did such good things for my back. I tried to go to sleep, but sleep eluded me for a long time. I finally drifted off around 1:30am.
Today I gave up my need to complete my to do list in favor of resting my body, which I must have needed.
Today I’m grateful for getting a plan to get my stuff done, a chance to rest, and waking up next to Diego.
I did not do any acts of kindness today, that I remember.
I spent no time in nature today.
I spent $5 on groceries, $2 on thank you cards, and $10 on a salad.
I slept for about 6 hours last night and 4 hours this afternoon.
I meditated for about 10 minutes today.
I did 30 minutes of yoga today.
I did not follow my diet today.
I did not clean or straighten today.
I was showered but did not brush my teeth today.
I was mostly in a good mood today, despite being so tired. My temperament was good.