December 25, 2015

I awoke early. I got everything together and left for my mom’s house, thankful that she, too was a morning person. I got there and, as usual, had more pleasure giving than receiving. She did get me very generous presents, but I just like giving them better. While she cooked, I worked on Diego’s scarf.

Then that uncle showed up. At least he didn’t go on about immigrants again. He went on about the “War on Christmas” in schools. Having taught in 7 different public schools around the state and done my Masters thesis on religion in public schools, I thought I was more than qualified to comment on his blatent untruths. My mom stopped me from saying he doesn’t know what he’s talking about. I realized he wouldn’t listen if I did say anything.

Instead, I’m going to say it here. In every school I have worked in, Christmas trees were displayed, often next to menorahs. Prayer was allowed, but was not allowed to be led by staff members. That way each kid could pray in his or her own way, rather than whatever religion the teacher happened to be. And I have known teachers that were Catholic, Morman, Jewish, Atheist, Pagan, Native, Muslim, and everything in between. Believe me, its better this way. I have had to work with kids in every school to make “holiday presents” for their families, even though it was almost always too late for the Jewish students to give them as Hanukkah gifts (the timing is usually dictated by my boss). The “Winter Concert” usually contains all Christmas songs that do not include the religious aspects of the holiday and sometimes have a “token” Hanukkah song. Sure, this isn’t the ideal celebration of Christmas for the serious die-hard Christians out there, but it’s far from a war on Christmas. If you want teacher-led prayers, religious training, and religious songs in a “Christmas Concert”, you should pay for parochial school. It is your right to do so because of the freedom of religion. Remember, the freedom of religion is intended so that everyone can practice the beliefs they like, not so that one belief system is forced on others. A true “War on Christmas” would include people being arrested or killed for having a Christmas tree, so please stop saying what isn’t true.

Okay, I’ll get off my soapbox now. Diego pushed me further to give up smoking by saying that he didn’t think I could. Ha! He was learning my contrary nature enough to say the thing most likely to work. I immediately wanted to prove him wrong! I got a lot further on Diego’s scarf but did not finish it. It’s maybe four feet long. I gave up and bought some scratch off tickets for him, just so he’d have something to open from me at Christmas. I told him about it, but told him it wasn’t done. He didn’t get me anything, but I counted that necklace as a Christmas present and didn’t really care that he had nothing for me to unwrap. I had unwrapped plenty today and yesterday from my parents. We watched a movie, but I fell asleep, having pushed myself so hard to wrap presents, finish cookies, finish his scarf, etc. the past few days.

After the movie, he wanted to go to bed. I should have known that meant sex. He was pretty pushy about it. I wasn’t dead set against it, but wondered how he’d take a firm “no”. I didn’t have the mind to give it, because he got me in the mood after all. But there was a point where I wondered how far he would go. I wondered if he was the guy for me because of this.

Afterwards, he told me that in his country, sex had a personal value. That people only did it with others they cared about. Unlike me who has sex with my friends when I’m single and I’m feeling horny, I alluded. I wondered if that was just because with no birth control, everyone had to be careful because of who you may have kids with. Diego said if he slept over every day, that he’d want it every day. I didn’t think that was necessarily a bad thing, so long as we did it earlier before I fell asleep. I fell asleep contentedly in his arms.

Today I gave up needing my opinion to be heard, but it was difficult. I also gave up my desire to finish Diego’s scarf before Christmas.

Today I’m grateful for that I was able to hold my tongue when necessary, seeing my mom, and giving gifts.

I gave gifts with no thought of reciprocation.

I spent no time in nature today.

I spent $6 on tolls.

I slept for about 6 hours last night.

I did not meditate today.

I did not exercise today.

I did not follow my diet today.

I did not clean or straighten today.

I was showered and brushed my teeth today.

I was mostly in a good mood today. My temperament was good.


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