I slept in until about 8:00. I was feeling better today, but I was not back to 100% yet. I alternated working on knitting Diego’s scarf with various other things I needed to accomplish. My apartment was pretty disgusting after a week of being sick, so I straightened up, caught up on dishes, and cleaned some of the more disgusting areas of my apartment.
It started to get late and I realized that I still hadn’t made Christmas cookies, a family tradition. I made my shopping list, picked up the ingredients, and was working on the first batch of cookies when I heard from Diego via text. He said he didn’t want to see me tonight, even though we had made plans to get together. I asked why and he responded that he didn’t want to. I felt my eyes filling up with tears when he said he was just joking. I told him that I didn’t like that kind of joke and that it made me cry. He asked why and I said that I thought he was serious and it made me sad. Even though he was only joking, I still felt sad when I picked him up.
Spending time with him made that feeling fade, but it took a while. Eventually, all was forgiven and I reveled in his touch, his embrace, and his kisses. We had sex and I fell asleep in his arms.
Today I gave up the belief that a man needs to be perfect and forgave Diego for his joke.
Today I’m grateful for a day of getting things done, getting a batch of cookies made, and getting to see Diego.
I let in a car who was trying to turn in really backed up traffic.
I spent no time in nature today.
I spent $146 on cookie supplies, cat food, and cat litter.
I slept for about 8 hours last night.
I did not meditate today.
I did not exercise today.
I did not follow my diet today.
I cleaned and straightened today.
I was showered and brushed my teeth today.
I was pretty neutral today except after Diego’s home I was sad, but I think it was good. My temperament was good.