November 18, 2015

I was so tired that I attempted to sleep on the train in the morning. It didn’t work. I saw Juan at the connecting station. I told him about having another date with Diego. I didn’t even care how he would react anymore. He sat with his friends on the train rather than with me. I was tired at work because I didn’t get enough sleep last night, but it was an otherwise good day at work.

My meeting with my principal went better than I thought it would. There were several issues to address but they always approached it from the standpoint of us working together to placate the parents, so I left the meeting feeling relieved.

On the train on the way home, I hung out with Juan. Diego kept texting me throughout. There was one seemingly benign text that I couldn’t understand even with my translator app. It seemed only natural to ask Juan to translate, until I found out Diego was saying he’d like to sleep with me. I felt embarrassed at asking Juan to translate it and annoyed with Diego for saying that stuff so soon. When I calmed down, I thought about it. I secretly was wondering if we were going to sleep together tonight, but would never have admitted it.

When I got home, I cleaned up the cat pee and puke and went to meet Diego, feeling crazy nervous. He took me out to dinner again. I tried to pay, but he wouldn’t let me. It was tough to communicate at times because my Spanish wasn’t good. His English was better, but there were still words he didn’t know and things he couldn’t find the words to say.

We got to my place and started the movie. After about 15 minutes he held my hand. We briefly talked about the difference in our skin tones. He had never been with an American woman before. I had never been with a Spanish man before. Not long afterwards, he kissed me. Everything snowballed and we slept together. Twice. It was just okay, but that’s probably because it was the first time together. And I was tired because I had not had a good night’s sleep all week.

The cuddling afterwards was great. I loved the feel of his skin and there was something about the feel of him pressed up against me. I nodded off a few times. Then he left and I went to sleep, with the faint scent of his cologne on my pillow as I drifted off to sleep.

Today I’m grateful for a guy I like that likes me back, sex, and good cuddles.

I gave a student whose leg was itching under her cast a useless paintbrush to use to itch her leg.

I spent about 40 minutes in nature today.

I spent $5.75 on parking today.

I slept for about 6 hours last night.

I did not meditate today.

I did about 40 minutes of exercise today.

I did not follow my diet. Juan gave me candy and Diego insisted that I have a bite of his flan.

I straightened and cleaned today.

I was showered and brushed my teeth today.

My mood was happy and nervous all day. My temperament was good.


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