As soon as my alarm went off, I regretted not going to bed as soon as I got home last night. I hit the snooze (which only lasts for one minute on my clock) several times, then set the alarm to go off at 4:15am. The alarm had interrupted my dream and I wanted to try to remember it. I didn’t succeed. I finally got up and showered at 4:30. I did everything I usually get done and got out of my front door at 5:30am. For the first time, I was able to catch the early train down. It arrived only a minute or two after I did. I wasn’t awake or aware enough to get anything done, so I put on my ipod and meditated to a guided meditation. Oddly, that woke me up and made me feel really good!
When it was time to switch trains, I was really thirsty so I found a vending machine. I made a poor choice and grabbed a soda instead of a bottle of water. As I walked to work, I thought about choices. Every day is full of choices. I had a choice to choose the healthy drink or not. Every sip I took, I made a choice to continue drinking that unhealthy drink. It struck me just how many choices I have every minute of every day and wondered how many of the ones I chose were good.
When I got to work, nobody was there yet! It also turned out that we weren’t actually supposed to be there for at least an hour after I arrived. I got a bunch of things done and then settled in for yet another professional development day. Since I teach a “special” subject, none of what they teach actually applies to me and so I got bored really quickly. I spent the rest of the time trying to do the work that the meeting was keeping me from doing like coming up with lesson plans and such.
When I got home, that married friend of mine messaged me on facebook, wanting to “get together” meaning he wanted to have sex. I know I had decided to stop because I didn’t enjoy it, but I realized that I was horny at the thought. I told him I had to go to bed early, which was true. He asked when my next day off was and I told him it was Columbus Day, which was also true. He suggested possibly coming over some night after work, but I could always deal with that later.
When I laid down, I realized that I couldn’t get to sleep. It was just too hot and too sticky. I tried reading. I tried a few other things, but eventually, I had to wait until the air cooled off enough.
Nature: I spent a total of 30 minutes in nature walking to and from work.
Finances: I spent $2 at a vending machine and $5.75 for parking.
Socialize: I spent time with co-workers.
Sleep: I slept for 5.5 hours.
Meditate: I meditated today.
Exercise: I walked for 30 minutes today.
Diet: I did not follow my diet today. I cheated for a few drinks.
Clean/de-clutter: I cleaned the cat pee off of my bathroom floor, but did not de-clutter.
Hygiene: I showered, but did not brush my teeth today.
Mood and temperament: My mood was decent, even though I got tired very quickly in the afternoon. My temperament was good.