My roommate was so quiet, I really had no idea what time she came in last night. Either that, or I was that tired. I did, however, awake when she got out of bed in the middle of the night saying “Oh my God! Oh my god!” with urgency. She apologized, but didn’t explain what happened, despite my inquiries.
My alarm went off at 4am again and I got up to meditate. I was a bit more successful in my meditation today. At least I don’t think I fell asleep. I went back to the room and typed up more of my blog. I’m about a week away from being caught up. I ran into Christine as she came out of the building. We chatted a bit. I skipped the 6am meditation in hopes of getting some kind of breakfast before the class. I found out after the fact that I wasn’t supposed to eat the food I ate. I was SO HUNGRY though! Oops!
At the class there was an announcement that Christine’s mom had passed away yesterday. Even though I really didn’t pay too much attention to the class, I felt my heart swell up with love as it was being read. I fell asleep for the meditation led by Christine which I couldn’t help, but it still felt disrespectful for her and for her mother who, I believe was supposed to be honored during the meditation.
I did more work on the grounds today. I had a very difficult time having enough energy to do the work. I found out after the fact that the people who live there take a break/nap from 2-4pm and I worked from about 8-noon then from 1-4. The people attending the retreats left in the morning leaving a very different atmosphere. I guess many of the people there had assumed I was attending a retreat. When they realized I was there to help out, they introduced themselves and were more friendly towards me.
Again, I was ravenous for my meals. I tried to go to sleep early around 8pm again, but ended up getting distracted by the internet so I didn’t end up going to sleep until around 11pm or so. I still felt a feeling of peace and gratitude as I waited for sleep take me.
Here are the nuggets of wisdom I took away from today’s morning class:
Constantly be a destroyer of obstacles for yourself and others. The easiest way to do that is by removing question marks and keep your powers by coming to a full stop.
Create zeal and enthusiasm in others by appreciating their specialties.
Create a spiritual atmosphere at your home and in yourself.
Finances: I spent $20 on cigarettes, a lighter, and some gas station food and drink.
Relationships: I hung out with the some of the various people who live and volunteer at the retreat center.
Meditation: I meditated today.
Sleep: I slept for 8 hours last night.
Exercise: I did plenty of exercise today.
Diet: I followed my diet as well as I could today.
De-cluttering and cleaning: n/a
Hygiene: I showered, but did not brush my teeth today.
Mood and temperament: I was in a good mood, but felt a weariness in my body that eventually resulted in a tiredness that affected my mood. My temperament was good.