I awoke late and I did everything that needed to be done at the last minute possible. I left and drove to pick up Kevin. When we arrived, I was surprised to realize that they thought Kevin and I were a couple and offered to have us room together. I knew I looked young, but for them to think I was dating a 20-year-old!? This isn’t the first time Kevin and I had encountered this. Perhaps it is just that we’re just such good friends and have so much in common that there is an energy of close friendship between us. I gently set her right, dropped Kevin off at his room and drove to mine, which was in another building. My roommates had already come, dropped off their things, and gone. They left me the bed I would have chosen anyway, so I unpacked and went to the main hall to wait for things to start.
We started with a brief meditation and introduced ourselves. The people who ran the workshop introduced themselves. We received a brief lecture about how transformation has three elements: you have to choose to transform, you have to change your behavior, and you have to become what you want to be. I also wrote the following words of wisdom: “When you can detach from the emotion of the desire to change, you are free to do so.” We were sent to bed with the invitation of an optional 4am meditation.
While I intended to do the 4am meditation, I discovered that I was not tired. I saw a guy who said something about moving a lot during his introduction and chatted him up. He seemed very interested in my camping trip. He had just come back from doing a week on a biking/camping trip. We talked a lot. He professed interest in some of the areas around the grounds, but didn’t know where they were. I knew the grounds well enough to find them in the dark. He asked me if I was scared a few times. I said no. I asked if he was. He mentioned bears a few times so I assumed that was what he expected me to be scared of. When we got to our second destination, there was a bench there. We sat down. It was just large enough for two people, so we ended up touching a bit. I didn’t mind. We had a lot in common and he was cute. He actually reminded me of a guy I had seen in a movie once. We watched the meteors, which were rather slow, but spectacular when we actually saw one. Eventually he asked me what I would do if he tried to kiss me. I thought about it and told him I would let him. He kissed me. Almost immediately, his hand found its way to my chest. I stopped him when it drifted very quickly to the area between my legs. We kissed a bit more, but when it was clear that I wasn’t going to have sex with him that night, he stopped.
We chatted a while longer. Then his character was revealed to me. He told me this story about these guys he knew who were having sex with a girl who was drunk and fell asleep in the middle of it. They kept going and then worried after the fact about getting her pregnant, so they poured all sorts of household cleaners up her vagina. I think he expected me to find this story amusing. However, I was appalled. When he realized, he tried making excuses for the guys. He did not try to kiss me again. I’m glad because I wouldn’t have let him. He walked me back to the building I was sleeping in. I went in and went to bed.
Finances: I spent $45 on gas, tolls, and fast food.
Relationships: I hung out with Kevin and the other people at the retreat.
Meditation: I meditated today.
Sleep: I slept for 7 hours last night.
Exercise: I really didn’t exercise today.
Diet: I did not follow my diet today.
De-cluttering and cleaning: I did both today.
Hygiene: I did both today.
Mood and temperament: I was depressed and later in the day I became more serene and hopeful. I enjoyed my time spent with the stranger, before I was appalled at his character. My temperament was good.