I awoke early, as is my custom, even on weekends. Nobody else was up yet, so I walked outside barefoot and meditated on a rock. Many of my muscles were sore from my activities yesterday, but it meant that I was getting stronger. The massage that Salvatore had given me had done wonders with my bad shoulder. It didn’t grind at all this morning when I rotated it, like it usually did! I packed my things while everyone was still sleeping and drove to my mom’s house for Mother’s Day.
On my way there, I recalled all of the good things from the previous night with Salvatore. I forgot to mention that there was a moment yesterday when he placed his hand on mine. The contact was too long to be accidental and too short to be consequential. I also recalled my list of things that I needed to do. I was far behind in my lesson plans as well as a craft project that had another deadline.
When I got to my mom’s house, I told her about my lesson planning and worked on it for an hour or two. I took a brief break from work to send a facebook message to Salvatore saying I hope he got home okay and told him what his massage had done for my shoulder. Then we ate lunch and they had talked of going for a walk. Logically, I thought I should accompany them on their walk. I should spend some time with my mom on Mother’s Day and get some exercise in, but I was too tired. As soon as they were gone, I fell asleep. I’m not sure how long I was asleep for, but my mom said I slept so deeply they were talking in the same room as me and I didn’t stir. Perhaps my body needed to heal.
We ate dinner and I left. It was a two hour drive home. By the time I got home, I saw that Salvatore had seen my facebook message and hadn’t responded. I was disappointed. He was probably dating that girl I saw him kissing and just wanted to be friends. I dunno what happened and will probably never know, but the disappointment is tough. I had thought that we had made a real connection. I guess I was wrong.
Exercise – none
Diet – I did pretty well today
De-cluttering and cleaning – I wasn’t home long enough
Hygiene – I had showered the day before, but didn’t brush my teeth.
Mood and temperament – My mood varied with excitement from what could happen from here with Salvatore to disappointment when he didn’t message me back. Tiredness pervaded throughout the day. My temperament was good, though.