I think there’s something wrong with wordpress’s stats feature. Three people liked my last post, yet according to their stats feature, I have had no site views and no visitors.
Monday was an okay day. It was busy. I went out to dinner with a friend and then I went to a gathering I had organized. I waited for an hour and a half, but nobody showed up. I had been asked to organize this gathering. I felt like I was doing someone a favor and was repaid by having nobody show up, not even the one who had asked me to organize it in the first place. I was angry when I got home. I had gotten very little done, so I tried to stay up late and do things. All I ended up doing was wasting more time. My back started hurting again, but they’re calling for rain or snow on Tuesday, so I’m assuming that’s why.
Today I woke up early enough to shower and do my dishes. Because I was able to actually cook breakfast, I ate a healthy breakfast of hard-boiled eggs. I even made extra and packed them for lunch. By lunchtime I was ravenous! I ate whatever the cafeteria was serving and ate a lot of it. After eating the cafeteria food, which was some kind of stromboli wrap, I was extremely tired. I even fell asleep waiting at the chiropractor’s office. Then I went food shopping to purchase some herbs for a soup. While I was there, I saw that some of my favorite Easter candy was on sale. I spent a good part of the evening eating it and realized that I was starting to get depressed. It seems that something I ate for lunch caused me to have fatigue and something in the candy I ate caused depression. I knew intellectually that food affects things, but I never realized until today exactly what that effect was. Why can’t I follow a diet regime? Out of 31 days, I think there was only one where I actually followed my diet. It seems like it’s a self-perpetuating cycle. I am tired and depressed, so I don’t feel like cooking so I eat food I shouldn’t. Because I eat food I shouldn’t I am tired and depressed. How do I break this cycle? I’m just hoping that when I start focusing on exercise next month that it helps me.
Diet: I did not follow my diet on either day.
De-clutter and cleaning: I did not de-clutter and clean on either day.
Hygiene: I showered on Tuesday.
Mood and temperament: I was pretty neutral on Monday, but did get pissed off when everyone bailed out on me. I started Tuesday fine, but then was tired and later depressed.