I get to see Bryan twice this week since I didn’t see him at all last week! I woke up and managed to pack to go to his place. I was surprisingly awake at work all day! Then I drove up to Bryan’s and he made us dinner. It was really tasty! He’s a really good cook! We settled down on the couch to watch movies. We had a little to drink, which caused me to nod off. We went upstairs to watch another movie in bed. I slept through almost the entire thing!
He woke me up around 2am. He had drank significantly more alcohol and was crying! Even though I had been woken up, I instantly placed his head on my chest and tried to be there for him. I told him to stop apologizing for crying. I told him that one of the things that I like about him is that he doesn’t hide his emotions. But mostly, I just lay there, held him, and listened to his incoherent ramblings. Then we had sex. Surprisingly, I orgasmed! Who knew all it would take was to be woken up in the middle of the night by a crying, drunk boyfriend and then have sex with him!? Maybe it was just because he made himself vulnerable to me that I didn’t feel so vulnerable anymore. Whatever it was, it worked!
It worked the next morning too! Unfortunately, I’m not sure why, but we had a condom mishap. So we split the cost of the “morning after pill”, I took it, and left. On my way home, I had a pressing need to visit the bathroom. I looked online and saw the side effects: diarrhea, stomach cramps, nausea, dizziness, fatigue, etc. I experienced them all but the nausea. While I saw the side effects, I saw another warning. According to several websites, the “morning after pill” is less effective for those who weigh over 165lbs. I weigh over 200! Then I got nervous about things which did not help the other side effects.
I sucked it up and went to hang out with some friends. It was a really important day for a friend of mine, so I wanted to be there for him. I felt so poorly, I couldn’t stay long enough for him to be there. I felt like a jerk, but I really was feeling dizzy and out of it. One of my friends told me that my usually pale skin had turned grey. I left early. When I got home, I went to sleep and slept for almost 12 hours!
On Sunday I tried to get some stuff for work done, but I was still feeling poorly from the “morning after pill” that I literally spent the whole day in bed. I got a few pressing work items done, but mostly drifted in and out of sleep.
Diet: I still didn’t follow my diet on any day.
De-cluttering and cleaning: I did neither all weekend.
Hygiene: I was showered for two days, but did not brush my teeth at all!
Mood and temperament: On Saturday, I started to cry and feel sorry for myself because I couldn’t be there for my friend. Mostly, I was just tired and a little depressed.