February 21, 2015

After our typical morning sex, Bryan made me breakfast in bed.  Then we left to go out to lunch with my friend Dan.  While I did tell Bryan that I had had sex with several of my friends, but that if I wanted to date my friends, I wouldn’t be dating Bryan.  He seemed pretty content with that speech, so I decided not to tell him specifically that I had slept with Dan several times this summer.  We went out to lunch.  I had a coupon for 20% off of one order, so I told everyone that they could just give me the money for their meal.  I thought that made it pretty clear that everyone was paying for themselves.  Bryan took out his wallet to try and pay me, when Dan thanked me for buying him lunch.  Several times.  So Bryan put his money away too.  Having to buy that car battery caused me to spend money that I really didn’t have to spend.  I didn’t have the extra money to buy everyone lunch this week.  Maybe I should have said something, but I also had guilty feelings about sleeping with Dan this summer while having no interest in him (even though I told him that I didn’t) and of not telling Bryan specifically that I had slept with Dan.

Bryan and I had other plans, but due to the weather, we spent the night in.  It was very nice at first.  I cooked some food for us.  Then I tried to update my blog for the day before.  I was almost done when the screen froze and I lost everything I was working on.  My mood just plummeted.  The same thing could have happened to me on a different day and I would have been annoyed, but otherwise fine.  I entered into a mild depression.  Bryan instantly knew something had changed.  He asked me what was wrong.  I tried to explain that the fact that I lost my blog affected me more than it should have.  He kindly told me I should work on my blog and then maybe it would go away.  It didn’t.  He tried to cheer me up, but the only thing that I really wanted to to do was cuddle with him.  I know it bothered him, but there was really nothing I could do.  I later fell asleep cuddling with him.

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De-cluttering and cleaning:  I didn’t do either today.

Hygiene: I didn’t brush my teeth or shower today.

Mood and temperament: My mood was decent at the beginning of the day and went downhill from there.

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