This morning I awoke singing “A Thousand Years”. I really didn’t know much of the song other than the chorus, but I thought it was interesting. I also dreamed that I was a detective that had a lot of fun with two young girls helping me solve mysteries. Perhaps I was just over-analyzing, but I wondered if the girls in the dream were meant to be Bryan’s kids.
I know the fact that I have snapped at one person all year may not seem like a big deal to those who are reading this (and I am actually surprised that I have a few followers already). However, I have had a lot of people in my life complain about my snapping at people when I’m tired, stressed or frazzled. It doesn’t happen often, but it tends to happen at just the wrong time or just the wrong way. I have had both friends and boyfriends complain about it and I have lost some of both because of it. I figured it needed to be addressed. I’m not quite sure how yet, but I snapped at someone else last night after I wrote my blog. Someone who I knew as an acquaintance walked by me and poked me in the stomach. I greatly dislike being randomly touched by anyone other than whoever I am dating or the closest of friends. I’ll give conciliatory hugs to really touchy people, but that’s it. So anyway, I snapped at her and told her not to touch me. I need to figure out what is causing this and what I can do to fix it. The emotion that accompanies it is often annoyance, which I am usually pretty good at fielding. This morning someone behind me on line kept hitting me with his elbow. I said something before I got angry about it, but wondered why I got instantly angry with the one and not the other. I need to think through this and possibly do some research. That’s why I’m working on my temperament.
I had a good day, overall. I got to see many friends, some of which I haven’t seen in awhile. There are a few people who were once good friends and are now not. They didn’t agree with the way I handled a situation with one of my exes and now they don’t like me anymore. I suppose that one could argue that they were never really my friend to begin with. I don’t like having anyone at odds with me, but there really wasn’t anything I could do about it. I can’t change the past. All I can really do is make sure to not let them get to me. I did have a good day. I made some new friends, hung out with old ones, and got to know several acquaintances better.
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Hygiene – Good! I both showered and brushed my teeth today!
Mood and temperament – Also good. I was happy throughout the day and I didn’t snap at anyone and treat them unkindly!
Depressimatic Me 